Maddy’s Jesus Story

I’m just so inspired and encouraged when I hear about what Jesus has done in people’s lives. Maddy shared this at yesterday’s evening service at Proclaimers; she’s one of the most bubbly people I’ve ever met. Full of life and energy! Read her #JesusStory below and to listen to the service MP3, click on the ‘proclaimers’ link above.


Photo on 12-11-2013 at 20.41I grew up in a secure and loving family. I was raised into the church that my mum went to. The first day I went I accidentally took a nose-dive off the pew and the person behind me leapt forward to catch me before I hurt myself, I on the other hand was laughing my head off.

I was a happy child and I took great delight in making people laugh and smile. But things turned bad during my school years. I was bullied quite badly, careless comments about my appearance, why was I short, fat, ugly, a loser, a nobody plus some boys thought it would be fun to beat me up and give me death threats.

This followed me into secondary school and (thankfully) it stopped. But the damage had been done, my self-esteem was crushed and I believed the lies they said.

This followed me into secondary school and (thankfully) it stopped. But the damage had been done, my self-esteem was crushed and I believed the lies they said.

I did have an idea of who God was. And mum always told me that Jesus loved me, but I didn’t really understand what that meant.

After believing those lies I thought to myself why would Jesus love someone like me?

The more I believed them, the more I hated myself. My dad used to take his anger out on me, things he didn’t mean and it made home life difficult. It hurt to hear that I was a waste of space and wasn’t good enough.

Convinced I was a failure, the depression within me consumed my mind. Before I knew it I was cutting my arms to let out the pain. I starved myself for a sense of control; within a few months I became anorexic and was told by the doctors if I didn’t start eating properly I would have a heart attack in 2 weeks – I was 16.

I didn’t care. I wanted to die. I had completely rejected God and wanted nothing more to do with the church or life itself.

After 3 and a half months being sectioned in hospital recovering, I felt no better that I did before. I tried to commit suicide 3 times during that period.

After 2 more years and 11 more suicide attempts, stitches in my arms, my depression not improving nor gaining an appetite for food it seemed I was in a black pit I had dug for myself and I couldn’t get out of it. Everything was hopeless.

After 2 more years and 11 more suicide attempts, stitches in my arms, my depression not improving nor gaining an appetite for food it seemed I was in a black pit I had dug for myself and I couldn’t get out of it. Everything was hopeless.

Then a friend asked me if I wanted to come along to Hillsong church one weekend. I thought to myself  “oh great! Just what I need, a bunch of judgemental people telling me how messed up I am”.

She persisted, so in the end I agreed to come. The message given was so over powering and it spoke so much into my life. At the end I was given an opportunity to accept Jesus into my life. I hesitated at first because I didn’t think I was worthy.

But I raised my hand.
I wasn’t healed there and then but I was taken on a journey of recovery walking with God.

Within 2 months I’d stopped self-harming, within 4 my depression was gone and my mental health was restored, I found value in myself, I discovered a love so much bigger than me. I was transformed from the inside out.  Never the  same!

Within 2 months I’d stopped self-harming, within 4 my depression was gone and my mental health was restored, I found value in myself, I discovered a love so much bigger than me. I was transformed from the inside out. Never the same!

Now if He can do a miracle like that in my life, I believe He can do the same in yours.

And that is why I decided to follow Jesus!


 

***Wow! I’m completely blown away by that testimony and I hope this reminded you of how completely our Jesus saves. ‘Whoever the Son has set free is free indeed.’ (John 8:36).  To anyone out there who needs encouragement, Psalm 34:18 is another good reminder that ‘the Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit’.  Let him in.

Thank you so much Maddy for sending this in. For anyone else who would like to share their #JesusStory , send us a tweet @worldlightmvmt or send an email to theworldlightmovement@outlook.com 🙂

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